The Mess We Are In

I can be light-hearted. Really. You might not believe it if you just read the posts from the last couple days. Atomic bomb book reviews. Kent State. And just wait until you see my post on the book I am reading right now on genocide (Samantha Powers’ A Problem from Hell). Sobering is an understatement. After I finish, I think it is time for a baseball book or a good mystery!

My problem is that the world is a mess! I know there are times when we’d rather not think about it, and perhaps times when it is good to remember what is good and beautiful and true in the world. But that doesn’t make the mess go away.

G. K. Chesterton was once asked to contribute to an essay to a collection written by famous people of his day opining on the subject of “What is wrong with the world?” His was by far the shortest contribution of all. He wrote just two words, “I am.”

It is easy for me to distance myself from things like making atom bombs, participating in campus riots and shootings, or genocide. It is easy for me to blame the mess on others, and perhaps to be a bit smug and self-righteous about it. But I’ve paid taxes that support our nuclear arsenal. I may even owe my existence to the fact that my dad never needed to be redeployed to Japan in World War 2 because of the bomb. I stood aside and watched the genocides in Rwanda and Bosnia and too easily accepted the explanations of complexities and national interest while people died. The only way not to be part of the mess is not to exist, it seems.

I’m not just a part of others’ messes! I’m very good at creating my own. The careless word that leaves wounds. The indulgences that waste time, money, and the opportunities that can never be retrieved. The addictions and compulsions that I might suppress in one place only for them to pop up in another.

I can hear someone out there saying, “come on Bob, lighten up. We’re all like that!” And that’s my point. We are  all like that. Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn put it this way:

“If only it were all so simple! If only there were evil people somewhere insidiously committing evil deeds, and it were necessary only to separate them from the rest of us and destroy them. But the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being. And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart?” 

Paradoxically, I have good reason to be both serious and light-hearted at the same time. Tim Keller, a New York City pastor has written, “We are more flawed and sinful than we ever dared believe, yet we are more loved and accepted than we ever dared hope at the same time.” My faith is about a God who didn’t wring his hands over the problem of evil but rather invaded our world to take it upon Himself so that I could stop pretending that I am better than I really am and stop despairing that I’m worse than I care to admit. God did this so I would stop running away from Him and instead run to be embraced by Him and live under his care.

So don’t be surprised when whimsy and joy crop up in these posts. It is not a denial of the ugly stuff. It is simply that it doesn’t get the last word.

A Love Supreme

There is a small difference between making work our God and loving God through our work. So says Tim Keller in his book Every Good EndeavorIn the former, work becomes a cruel taskmaster. In the other, our work can be one more expression of love. One of Keller’s illustrations of the latter is John Coltrane’s groundbreaking album, A Love Supreme, released in 1964.

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Coltrane, in the liner notes to this album, writes:

During the year 1957, I experienced, by the grace of God, a spiritual awakening which was to lead me to a richer, fuller, more productive life. At that time, in gratitude, I humbly asked to be given the means and privilege to make others happy through music. I feel this has been granted through His grace. ALL PRAISE TO GOD. 

As time and events moved on, a period of irresolution did prevail. I entered into a phase which was contradictory to the pledge and away from the esteemed path; but thankfully, now and again through the unerring and merciful hand of God, I do perceive and have been duly re-informed of His OMNIPOTENCE, and of our need for, and dependence on Him. At this time I would like to tell you that NO MATTER WHAT … IT IS WITH GOD. HE IS GRACIOUS AND MERCIFUL. HIS WAY IS IN LOVE, THROUGH WHICH WE ALL ARE. IT IS TRULY – A LOVE SUPREME – .

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I was inspired by Keller to pick up a copy (found one second hand at Half Price Books!) and was delighted to discover this jazz classic written as an act of worship, but also a consummate piece of music in which Coltrane is joined by McCoy Tyner on piano, Jimmy Garrison on bass, and Elvin Jones on drums.

One of the delightful things about this work is that this act of worship is also a work of excellence. This seems fitting, that works of love are works that delight and works of excellence. It seems we often look for work that we love and struggle when it is frustrating. What if instead work were something done to express our love, as was Coltrane’s work? How might that make a difference?