Trying to Read in a Crisis

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When the thought was raised of “physical distancing,” that sounded like heaven for a reader. And maybe it has been for some.

Not so far for me, and it may be you see less reviews from me. Typically, I’ll end up reading about 120 pages a day most days. This past week, if I can read 30, I’m doing good.

Some of it is work-related. I work in a collegiate ministry where we are making a rapid shift from face-to-face to digital. I happen to lead one of the digital areas of our ministry, and lots of time has been spent in Zoom calls figuring out how to do that. I just finished a nationwide call with university faculty trying to figure out how to convert their courses from face-to-face to online. We were using the some of the same software they will be using–and learning from each other in the process.

Some of it is just getting our household in order. We had the chance to move up a bathroom remodel. Now I wonder if a week later it would have even gotten done. In recent weeks we had been stocking up at the grocery–before the long lines. We had a sense this was coming, but there has been some extra time just getting our ducks in a row.

But a good part has just been distraction. I find myself checking the news reports more than is good for me and commenting with others online. Apart from finding out what the latest mandates are from our state, I don’t need to do too much more. I know it is going to keep getting worse for a while. I know I have to stay home and stay clean and not touch my face. It’s like it was in 9/11, except this won’t be done for awhile. The news coverage can draw you in, and agitate your thoughts and depress your heart. And it can distract from enjoying a good read.

Probably the best thing is to check in with my nightly news once a day, and stay away from news coverage the rest of the time. Sometimes I leave the phone in a different room so I’m less tempted to check it. Someone mentioned getting out for a walk. Haven’t done much of that recently, and I find that always clears my head. I sleep better and focus better. Replace screen time with walk time!

And maybe I just need to accept that my page count will drop for awhile. Maybe as things settle in that will change. I suspect in all sorts of way, this is a time where we need to be gentle with ourselves as well as with each other. It might even be a way where to get liberated from some compulsions. Some people waiting for me to review a book may have to wait longer. Right now, in the big scheme of things that doesn’t seem important.

These days, I find myself giving thanks that I’ve been preserved through another night, and at night through another day. I’m thankful to take a breath of air outside my door and scent the coming spring, which gives me hope. I give thanks for meals enjoyed at home. I give thanks for the quiet around me as I write. And when I can, I give thanks for the minutes I can spend with a book and a cup of coffee. The present crisis reminds me that all these things are gifts, gifts with which I may have become far too familiar.

8 thoughts on “Trying to Read in a Crisis

  1. Hi Bob
    Wishing you good health. My husband and I are staying in per guidelines for seniors. A long time fan of your Youngstown column.
    Michelle Humans White

  2. Yes, it really is hard to stay focused on things other than all things virus-related. Thanks for your reminder. Now I need to go finish the fruit tree pruning–away from my phone and computer!

  3. I stopped watching TV and the news there decades ago and am a happier person for it. If I was not still arranging flights for my granddaughter to get home to Montreal, I would have turned this all off forever. I sit perched at the computer, grading papers but waiting for the other shoe to fall.
    Good news is, she is waiting to board a British air flight and having fish and chips in the restaurant nearby. She should land in Montreal later today.
    You are right on target in this article Bob, as usual.

  4. Yeah, I can’t read either!!! Distraction, thinking of so many things, checking news too much, wondering if what I have on hand is sufficient. I’m not anxious, at least it does not seem like anxiety, but my mind is all over the place.

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